Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Puzzling Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a overcast Monday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation sprang behind my one eye. Then came quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically start with severe discomfort behind a single eye that lasts for three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, severe pain around a single eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for up to three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a chronic patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her attacks started when she was two. “I would throw myself on the floor and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to many triggers, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often interpreted her episodes as drunken episodes. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center.

Still, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She recalls obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described across history. “The first account of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a migraine. In the middle ages, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more folk cures.

It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple operations before eventually being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor looked up his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs appear? For how much time? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she hasn't had an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks dentists still need greater education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But leading specialists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve activity.

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